TIMES LIKE THESE
Foo Fighters
I am a one way motorway
I’m the one that drives away
Then follows you back home
I am a street light shining
I’m a wild light blinding bright
Burning off alone

It’s times like these you learn to live again
It’s times like these you give and give again
It’s times like these you learn to love again
It’s times like these time and time again

I am a new day rising
I’m a brand new sky
To hang the stars upon tonight
I am a little divided
Do I stay or run away
And leave it all behind?

It’s times like these you learn to live again
It’s times like these you give and give again
It’s times like these you learn to love again
It’s times like these time and time again
Ad@m360 | 7:05 PM |

The past makes you who you are now.
you cant just leave it behind.
it's bound to follow you wherever you will go.
some ppl try to make a whole new beginning by ditching their past.
most fail.
as for me,
i dont even have enough of a past to build upon.
barely any photos, contacts, anything...
from age seven to 15/16, is like lost somewhere between the folds of time.
all that i have left is memories that're slowly fading away...
trying to salvage all i can by writing them down...
but it's already too late.
more than half is gone...
a decade lost.
a lifetime to regret.
that's my sacrifice.
Ad@m360 | 6:32 PM |

CREED LYRICS

"My Sacrifice"

Hello my friend, we meet again
It's been awhile, where should we begin?
Feels like forever
Within my heart are memories
Of perfect love that you gave to me
Oh, I remember

When you are with me, I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice

We've seen our share of ups and downs
Oh how quickly life can turn around
In an instant
It feels so good to reunite
Within yourself and within your mind
Let's find peace there

When you are with me, I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice

I just want to say hello again
I just want to say hello again

When you are with me I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
Cause when you are with me I am free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice, My sacrifice

I just want to say hello again
I just want to say hello again

My sacrifice.
Ad@m360 | 6:31 PM |

wonder wad would've happened if i din exist for the past 5 yrs?
would saifud still be in npcc?
would my 4 classes throughout sec. sch be any less crazy?
how many ppl do i matter to
u decide...
Ad@m360 | 4:41 PM |

a lot of thoughts running thru my mind
these past few days.
my classmates told me that i've changed a lot from
my usual self last semester.
i told them that i AM my usual self.
last semester was only a front i put up.
that means that they have to get to know me
all over again.
cant be bothered with how they think of me, anymore.
i know that academically, i'm moving a lot faster than
my old friends.
but socially, i'm being left behind.
yes, i know that a select few are waiting for me to catch up.
but they can only wait for so long.
'cos they know as well as i do that
once u're out,
it's hard to get back in.
when i listen to my friends relating about their day in school,
i cant help but feel envious.
their curriculum allows them time to socialise and bond among themselves.
but for me, we only interact to do group assignments, and that's 'bout it.
so when they ask me about MY day,
i dont tell them much.
not because i dont want to.
it's because i cant.
all that i can tell them is this,
"slacked at home, went to school, come back, go to work, come back, sleep."
and that's about it.
talk about meaningless.
my daily schedule is so packed that i cant take a break without planning for it
a week in advance.
no joke.
i so badly want to get out of this gridlock,
but i cant.
well, you cant have everything.
anyway, if you want to experience how i feel,
here's a similar situation:
there's a pathway next to a fast-flowing river.
while you take a kayak to the end of the river, alone,
a group of your friends take the pathway to the same place.
since you can only pedal so slow, and
they can only walk so fast,*
you leave them behind after a while.
though you reach the destination 1st,
you still have to wait for them.
loneliness settles in and you start losing it.
meanwhile,
your friends are walking along the path,
joking, laughing, singing amongst themselves.
and when they reach the place,
know what they find?
a raving lunatic that they used to call
"a friend".
--+--
i think i'm somewhere between * and the one below it.
sigh...
what do you think?
Ad@m360 | 3:47 PM |

hmm...
morning classes for the whole week...
but cant wait for the new campus, tho'.
hope got windows for me to stone through.
lol...
went to Comex (computer expo) yesterday.
the crowd turnout was insane.
ok, ok.
so i asked for it by turning up on the last day.
so sue me.
but anyway, bought a128mb SD memory card at a steal for only $38.
then looked around for mp3 players and some digital cameras.
but i dont see a need for those things.
my phone plays videos, mp3, takes pictures (quality's not too bad),
mixes music, is a storage device, torchlight, paperweight, calculator,
watch/alarm clock, goes online to check my email and blog/s.
oh, and did i say that it receives and makes calls and messages, too?
okay, so the camera isnt that great.
but it's good enough to capture text in detail.
all that for less than $300.
and btw, forgot to mention that it has a 2" screen.
talk about getting more than you bargained for.
a LOT more.
haha.
Ad@m360 | 3:46 PM |

what a whirlwind week.
on monday, had group assignment right off the bat.
the next day, another one falls into our lap.
n everything's gotta be done the day after.
sigh.
but studies aside.(can we actually DO that?)
read an email questionaire rply from a friend of mine.
found out things tt i din even noe.
(which is weird, cos i seem 2 noe evrything happening 'round me)
surprised me. but not shocked. just pleasantly surprised.(aww..)
god knows why my friend felt that way towards me.
speaking of which,
i noticed that i seem to 'click' better with girls than guys over these past few years.
they tell me everything even when all i asked was these 4 words,"how was your day?"
but hey, at least i dont act effeminately unlike those other sissies that hang around girls.
not tt i have anything against them, that is.
well yes, they do drag me along to go shopping for clothes or looking for stuff (the girls, not sissies.)
but sometimes i just tag along for lack of anything else to do.
yeah, if only there was more of me in this world...
but then, effeminate guys would become extinct.
oh well.
might as well not take away their 'livelihood'.
haha.
ok, now i'm getting evil.
haaa..(stretches arms)
i miss blogging for the masses.(cracks fingers)
i came back 'cos u guys ask me to.(cracks neck. twice.)
and for that, i thank you.
yep. i noe it's been a while.
been busy with school, work,my private blog, counseling...(yes, u noe who u are.)
sometimes i even amaze myself.(wow!)
it's as if there's a different me for all these things.
i dont noe if anyone else is going thru dis.
if there is, i'd like to meet tt person.
but for now, it's me against the music. (and no, i'm not talking 'bout the britney spears song.)

(ps: dude, i give you time to think and reconsider about that bet. she's right on schedule. you'd better rmb where u put the nydc coupons nxt yr, or else it's gonna b in cash...)
Ad@m360 | 9:48 PM |